Realization

Alright. What a weekend. I'm starting to realize some things. I have to focus on God first.
I've been letting things control my emotions that shouldn't. I have problems, but who doesn't? I mean, I've been sitting and complaining. I NEED TO ACT.

Gah, it makes me mad at myself little bit. I really do have a lot to be thankful for. I need to learn how to appreciate it. Like, now.

I love youth group. Tonight during pre-service prayer I was thinking. &Then someone got up on stage and said something and it hit me. I need to have open hands for God. Open heart for God. I need to be clay in his hands. I need to give my all to God. I need to surround myself with people who will help me do that.

I realize I can be annoying sometimes. I realize sometimes I care too much. But, if you don't like that... I'm sorry. I'm not going to stop caring about people. You know? Last night was a long night. This whole weekend was a slap in the face.

But it was a good one.